Big Shoes, Small Feet

After a week or so of grocery shopping and lazing around here in Lincoln, the time for actual work finally arrived. On Monday, I went to the Nebraska Department of Education to meet my employer and colleagues in the Data, Research and Evaluation team. Nervous as I was, I thought the meeting went pretty well...until I discovered that the research assistant I was replacing had 6 years of working experience, Bachelor's degrees in Computer Science and Engineering, a Master of Business Administration, a second Master of Survey Research and Methodology, and a wealth of knowledge on statistical softwares. Let me tell you that if it wasn't for the extreme cold in the air-conditioned office space, my sweat would have soaked through my black dress and leather sandals.

I left feeling terrified, horrified, and like I could use a tub of ice-cream just then. But God, ever so kind and gracious, quickly reminded me of His faithfulness, and how I can and need to trust Him precisely because I cannot do it on my own. I am also thankful for family and friends around me whom I can share my honest woes with, and who bring my vision back to Jesus who is big enough for any shoe size.

Today marks my second day of work, and I am grateful for lovely superiors, a large cubicle that's located right next to the pantry (oh yeah!), free stationery, the lack of CCTVs, financial provision, an unparalleled hands-on experience in the data science field, the walking distance of the office building from campus, and God's working all things out for my good.

Fear greets me every now and then when I think about my graduate classes which begin next week. Only one thing to do: Pray! And eat well, of course.

"So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
-Isaiah 41:10


Back to The Good Life

Greetings from Lincoln, Nebraska!

I have been here for a week now, and a terribly busy week it has been. I went to the bank so frequently that the branch manager exclaimed, "Wow, you must really love us!" when she saw me  for the fourth time yesterday. Also, I have one too many Walmart receipts because I kept forgetting to get some items and had to go back for them. Today felt like a vacation because I did not have anything urgent left on my to-do list. So I decided to grab a cup of raspberry mocha, sit by the coffee shop window as it gently poured outside, and spend precious time with my God.

Backtracking to the day I left Malaysia, I was simply and supremely in awe of how God has blessed me in every imaginable way during my season at home. I suppose this joy overflowed because I found the courage to talk to strangers, for the first time, during my flights and transits en route to the U.S. of A. I chatted with a total of four people at length, and these four people turned out to be a brother-in-Christ/music student, a designer/make-up artist, a chef/photographer, and a high school senior returning from a mission trip in Japan. Needless to say, it was one of my most interesting journeys on air thus far.

Despite being too busy for God most days and being so consumed by the things of this world, still His mercies for me were new every morning, His grace was sufficient for me every day, and His love covered me every moment. There are truly no words to describe the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus and walking humbly with Him.

There are ten thousand and more things that I am thankful for this past week, but here are just a handful of them: A job offer for my brother, breakfast made by my apartmentmate on my first morning here, my cousin's willingness to lend me his car for the week, having a lovely lady as my program's coordinator, staying in the very bedroom which once belonged to a dear sister-in-Christ, financial provision to get all that I need (and don't need), familiar places and familiar faces, technology for keeping in touch with people miles away, and three pounds of frozen blueberries.

I say this all the time, and I cannot help but say it again: God is so good!

"One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek Him in His temple."
-Psalm 27:4


Round Two

As I rested my head on my pillow last night and reminisced about all that God has done for me from the moment I came home, I was left with nothing but wonder and praise for my loving and faithful King. From providing beyond what I need, to the blessing of being among family and friends, and to the joys of knowing Him deeper, God never fails to amaze me with His crazy love and goodness. It was quite a challenge simply trying to highlight the best parts of my time at home, because there were too many. Some pleasures in life, I just cannot put into words.

Second time around, and my heart is again heavy yet full as I prepare to head back to good ol' Nebraska this evening. I will miss the life and people here, yet I am looking forward to the life and people there. I know God has great things in store for this next season of my life, and I am counting on Him through it all.

"For great is Your love, higher than the heavens; Your faithfulness reaches to the skies." -Psalm 108:4