Constant Changes

This has been a rather splendid weekend for me.

After 11 hours of blissful sleep on Friday night, I woke up on Saturday morning to quite a beautiful sight: My mother working on her Bible Study Fellowship (BSF) questions. It might not have seemed like a big thing, but it was to me because this was a big answer to a small prayer. Needless to say, I did not hesitate to get out my Bible and notes, and join her at the table to meet with our loving King. I honestly could not have asked for a better morning.

Later that day, my mother and I accompanied my dad for his chiropracter's appointment. While I was waiting for them outside the room, a little boy came by and waved at me. And it just made my day! God reminded me through that small act from a small hand just how much He loves me as His beloved daughter -despite how utterly helpless and weak I often am, despite my deliberate disobedience, despite my stupid choices and silly mistakes, despite my being just like a child. He is indeed a fantastic Father.

Sunday came next, and after church, I went to the mall to hang out with some old friends from high school. Two of them just turned 23 this past week and it was a great pleasure to have been able to celebrate with them. I almost can't believe that it has been 6 years since we graduated from high school, but only almost. I am always thankful for God's goodness over friendships that have lasted through the times.

Although this week is drawing to a wonderful close, it was not without its share of challenges. It is a truth not universally acknowledged, but acknowledged just the same, that I do not deal well with changes. At all. These past few weeks have brought about many changes in several areas of my life, and I am just failing miserably at reacting calmly to them. I am so grateful for the reminder that God is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer, even in the midst of cluttered thoughts and messy feelings.

I have exactly 5 more weeks left of my internship, with 2 weeks of vacation wedged in between, and a whole lot of changes in the offing. I am truly glad that God is God, and I am not.

"If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything. Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God" -1 John 3:20-21

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