Tragic Thoughts

Yesterday, I tutored my cousin brother Additional Mathematics for a total of two and a half hours. I absolutely have no idea how I survived the session but the ironic thing was that he could handle using his brain for more than two hours and was so motivated throughout the session. Honestly, I wouldn't have been able to make it past the second hour if I were still in high school. So it was a wonder how I found the will, concentration and energy to teach him after two hours had elapsed. I also came to realize that teaching is actually a little bit more challenging than learning...especially when one has embarrassingly forgotten a subtopic of a chapter and has to seek help from a math whiz online. Aiyaya.

Today was a brilliantly boring day. But I enjoyed the tedium. I woke up unusually early this morning and watched a movie which left me feeling slightly light-hearted. It ended somewhere around 12PM which was an hour earlier than the usual time I get up at daily. After the movie, I continued with the awesome storybook I was reading and finished it. It was a good feeling -reading more than a hundred pages in one day- because it has been months since I last had the rabid desire to read non-stop until I arrived at the last page of the story. Then I watched some TV and napped a bit in the evening. I had also spent a minimal time on the laptop...which is very unlike any other day. Like I said, utterly boring.

In a way, today made me miss my old self. I honestly can't tell how much I have changed since I stepped into college, or if I have changed at all, or if the change was for the better or for the worse. But I am certain that college has taken a little bit of my old self away. And may have replaced it with something new. I am not too sure if I am liking the new self too much. But then again, my old self was a bit twisted in the head, too. So, in conclusion, this whole paragraph has only one point: There is no point. Oy. This is why I loathe the holidays. There is too much room for thoughts, be it joyful or tragic ones. Thankfully, I channel more happy (or insane) thoughts than sad thoughts...or at least I'd like to think so.

I am looking forward to tomorrow and the rest of the week as I have something planned everyday before the life-threatening tooth surgery next Monday. Pshaw.

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